This has been a whirlwind kind of month, with high highs, and low lows. We had our little Henry and have been so happy to have him in our family. But then we lost a pivotal member of the Jacobs family - Mike's dad Kendall.
He was one of the first people I met when we moved to Salem when I was 17. He came over with Michael and Mike's cousin Glenn to help us move the fridge into the house. Since then, he made an effort to show he cared about me as an individual. That's what he did for people - he cared.
He even made time for the big kids. :)
Grandpa Jacobs was one of Andrew's absolute heroes. He always found things to show and tell Grandpa, and knew he would "just love it." And he always did. I was worried about how he would react to Grandpa's death, but he actually helped me to see what I already knew. At the visitation, he was looking at the casket and said, "It looks like Grandpa, but Mom, it's just his body. His spirit lives with Heavenly Father. This is just his body." And that is true.
Nothing can quite take away the sadness that I feel losing my father-in-law. Nothing can quite take away the sadness of knowing he isn't here anymore to go to for advice or a story or to show him something that he thinks is "AMAZING!". We all feel the loss. But I am so grateful to have been his daughter-in-law. I am so grateful to have known and loved him, because I did love him so very very much. I'm happy that my husband had such an amazing daddy, because I know he took lessons from this amazing guy.
I left the funeral wanting to be better. To be kinder. To laugh more. To share my love of Jesus Christ more. To be a better parent. To be a better person.
I saw a quote recently that said, "I want to be somebody who makes everybody feel like somebody." I love that. For the past few years, I've been working on trying to see people as they truly are. I want to see them as important, no matter the circumstance. Thank you, Ken Jacobs. Thank you for ALWAYS being somebody who makes everybody feel like somebody amazing. You made a huge impact for good on this earth. You made a huge impact for good in my family. You did a wonderful job with your time here on earth.
I sure do love you.